今天是冬至，北京今年至今最冷的一天，却是我今年最温暖的一天.
Baby, tell me how can I love you?
Hi all
It has been quite a while that I wrote a blog. There have been so much between these days. And believe me, they are all good things.
Life is like a non-stoping train, keep going forward. And all we can do, is, stay with it.
PS:
1. I got L-1 visa for US, but chaning the destanaion to Mountain View.
2. Departure date will be delayed to mid Dec.
好久没见了。
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我大包小裹的回到了中国，踏上了北京的土地。回程的路上，六点钟的朝阳照在脸上，睁不开眼睛，浑身暖洋洋的。
多年前在学校那个小屋子的时候，一觉起来已是中午，我还记得自己懒懒的透过脏兮兮的玻璃看外面的太阳，数着外面榕树上一片叶子，又一片叶子，很快太阳就落山了，很快我就又困了，很快我就又能数叶子了。
还有更小的时候，我坐在教室里，音乐老师在前面弹着钢琴。夕阳照在屋子上，把一切映的金灿灿的。一片云彩突然的飘过，屋子里暗了又重亮起来。我的心一沉，这画面就这么深深的刻在了我的心上。
呜呼，记忆是一种奢侈品，也许在旅行的途中，才会有时间慢慢的去品尝、回味。而记忆又是如此不确定，无法描述，也无法记录，对吧？
你怎么能靠回忆来描写回忆呢?
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这次回到北京，心境尤其大不一样。小时候的我来北京玩，北京是旅行的目的地，家是家。后来读大学，北京是暂时的家，家还是家。工作后，买了房子，北京是家，家是暂时的家了。
而我，现在，终于又要把北京变成旅行的驿站了。
公司调动顺利的话，今年的圣诞节就要在纽约过了，也许还有明年, 后年。
呜呼！
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通知：如一切顺利，本人将于年底调去纽约工作。望各位读者周知.
大周六的下午一点，我上了CA981, 又一次开始了14个小时的空中之旅.
由于机场去的太晚了，想选个座位都没有了。办登机牌的帅哥拿着我的登机牌，唾沫乱飞的对我说飞机一共能坐289个人，你看看你是第几个，第280个，我们九点就开始办手续了。
于是我怀着对早晨一直到九点的美好回忆坐在了一个很难受的座位上。
左面是一位学者型的青年才俊，单手持一本英文小说（据我观察，肯定不是技术书籍），看得不亦乐乎，整得我顿时觉得自惭形秽，赶紧抓出 “facebook 从0到数百亿“ 以及 “读库0800″ 分别用一个小时和一个半小时看完，中间还睡了个觉，吃了个午餐，然后又睡了个觉。睡醒起来，我一看，青年才俊同学也睡着了，顿时觉得轻松了不少，抓紧时间趁他翻身醒的一瞬间，跟他说：我上个厕所。
青年才俊同学一挺身，麻流利索的收起小桌板，我转身出去，惊鸿一笃间，发现他把鞋都脱了。从此长眉吐气，特别爽的上了个厕所，在紧急出口附近闲晃了半响，直到空姐微笑的对我说：对不起这里不能长时间逗留，我一愣，莫非他们看出来我有什么不轨企图?
我就想问问还有吃的没有，饿了。
如此一番，于是乎，我一溜烟的回到了座位上，青年才俊还是用他白白的脚踩在地毯上，继续思索人生去了.
右面的帅哥，梳了一个爆炸头型，据我不完整观察，还带有耳环，唇钉。一脸谁欠他几百万的样子，上来倒头就睡。亏了他的右边坐了一位女性，不停的帮他拿饭，盖被等。据我回忆，14个小时，该同学除了吃饭时和上飞机时看了一会报纸之外，一直处于半睡眠状态，不知道是不是对社会特别不满，以及对现状充满怨恨，用实际行动报复社会对他实行的一系列不公平待遇。
我所能回忆起来的他的话语，只有只言片语，1. 可乐，加冰 2.海鲜面条 3.可乐, 给加点冰，（空姐：没有冰了），啊？
之所以缺少午饭的选择，是因为空姐正喊着：我们只有鳕鱼米饭了。于是他就伸出了一只手，接过了饭。
我认为这直接导致了他对社会更加不满了，因为吃完饭，他把鞋脱了，后来更是把袜子也脱了。
至于这位女性，我一直没明白她的准确身份，
1. 从这位愤怒青年的叛逆行为来看，很有可能是他母亲，但是看该女性的面容和年龄又不太像，而且没道理他是公民而他母亲不是（从填入关申报单看出来的，该愤怒青年根本没有理会，一直昏睡中）
2. 亲属，七大姑八大姨之类。这不由得让我回想起，当年我舅妈领我出去时，不停的试图买东西给我，我不停的试图拒绝的疲惫经历。不过愤青同学应该不能用我的例子推论，所以存疑。
3. 妻子， 该愤怒青年潮流的很，我顿时联想到Prison Break里scofield 的协议妻子，莫非上演了真实版?
带着对此的巨大怀疑，我陷入了梦乡，再次醒来时，飞机已经在下降了。随着一声特别大的震动，还有几个小孩子的惊叫，我们好像摔在了纽约肯尼迪机场一样，随着一段巨短的滑翔距离，我们停在了一个停机楼的边上。
等了三十分钟，停机楼才空出来，又排了一个小时的队，我才通过了移民处，拎上小箱子，上了林肯，一路闲聊，到了住的地方。
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纽约的街道跟旧金山一样，区别就是纽约全是人，旧金山没有人。各种小商店，小饭馆鳞次节比。回来收拾一下，一个朋友过来接我，一起去了一个海鲜自助餐吃饭。31$每人，吃了很多寿司还有两个螃蟹以及一些贝壳类食物，貌似不是很值。
回来的时候逛了一个旁边的小超市，里面各类东西一应俱全。买了一瓶熟悉的smartwater, 和一盒水果：图中的空盒
明天的计划是去参观帝国大厦，自由女神像，然后去布鲁克林找同学继续吃饭。
呜呼，我却还没睡着。
I hate that.Hating that everybody treats me as a kind of TOOL.
Nearly ten years passed,I make a bit of progress in computer,at least those who treates computer as a tool for gaming thoughts.Then whenever the computer did somthing unexcept by them,THEY WILL CALL ME FOR HELP,saying that “sunyucong come to see my computer!”.
These happens when I was very young,when I was a little older,and now.I don’t like that,but everyone treats me that.At first,They will give me something as a reward.I don’t like reward,I learned for no one.
Recently I have met so many things, and I only want to cry,crying always bring us ways, didn’t they?But I am alone now,studying far from Harbin.No one exceplity know what is happening to me,and they tell me that they don’t care by their manners.
I don’t like to face that,face the world.Being a human,I have to abondon somthing in order to get something back.
What will you do?If you are choose self-respect and something you really need?
Hard to say,isn’t it?
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4 Comments
what happened to u then?I wanner wash my ears to listen ur story.hoho,haha,heyhey,xixi.
happy everyday.have a good trip to harbin.
call me ,dude,
and come over and see my computer.
Posted 1/18/2005 at 12:45 PM by hitlhy
hey! i am 大笨猪. i am linked here by your sign on QQ.do you use this to improve your english? great, it s a good method.
but i think you d better check your spell and grammar. it is good for your english.
that’s all. i think you have been in harbin now.
best wishes.
Posted 1/18/2005 at 11:43 PM by guoqm
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I sucks,i c
i just try to use sth new
nothing more than that ,mistakes is unaviodable.
take it easy.
Posted 1/19/2005 at 7:26 PM by hitlhy
hi, how is it going? welcoming u to the harbin metro! we rock! hehe, drop by and say hi!
Posted 1/20/2005 at 11:14 AM by Dancing_Wind
Just on the day before yesterday, a shop opend just in front of my school’s south gate. Replacing a well-known telephone bar, the new shop was managed to caught our eyes. While everyone was in doubt at that what will it sells, there’s already a shop sign hanging over the frontdoor. it says ” Beijing 2008 “.
It’s so clear about what will it sell, those five “Friendlies” . When my girlfriend advise me to have a look at those toys, I refused immediately.
You may think that I should not take that so seriously , But I want to say :
I don’t like those ugly,monotonic, dislovely toys. The goverment choses those to be auspicious figure make me fell ashamed.I have no ablility to change the fact, But I can refush them.
It’s not a joke, after 李宇春 got the first class in 超级女生, These five toys blew off my fantasy. What’s wrong with this world? What’s going on among ourselves?I don’t think that I was changed. I would rather take these things as a serial of signals, It will finally overthrow the fair and the rules.
It make me remember a fact explain by a book called 博弈论,”public voting will not result in the best. ” These things all can be proof of this thesis(命题). When we chosse among various choice in front of us, we will always choose in one’s own way, this just make no sense in voting.
So just think about what will happen if our country turned out to be a “democratic country” and we use “public voting ” to elect leaders. You, a FQ(愤青) will know why we still live in happy in the china.
BTW: There was a Singing Contest just about one week ago, the best singer got the last rewarding. Why? they find twenty girls to be ” judgement “, as you know , the care nothing about singing, the most beautiful man , whos’s singes worst , got the first rewarding. what a sarcasm!
一转眼，我到Google已经月余了，公司是很专业的地方，每个人都非常smart,每天都非常非常充实。
有人说，我有了google便忘了学校，我只是想说一句，早在一年前， 在我投出第一份简历时，我就从心理上毕业了，是学校死缠着我，妄图想要以他的眼光衡量我。
回首四年的时光，学校没有带给我太多的知识，却带给我更重要的东西，他教会了我什么是社会，什么是人生，他教会了我不断的奔跑。
离开了学校，我还是会奔跑在Google。其实我也不知道自己的目标，但是我相信我能得到这一切。
每每想起这些的时候，我都觉得自己是一块海绵，拼命的吸水，吸水，永不停歇。
我相信自己可以得到，我想，我就能。
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